I was having a really good (and quite productive) morning. By 10:30 AM I’d started laundry, hung one load on the line, had some “prayer and coffee” time, made my to-do list for the day, set up the kids’ chore schedule for the week, and gone to Mass, the bakery and the supermarket.
Then I got home and started working the phones and the planner.
I needed to call the soccer camp where we’d just registered Little Brother to clear up a few questions (such as why I’d never received an email confirming his registration, for starters).
I called the pediatrician to schedule Little Brother’s physical.
I called my gynecologist to make an appointment for my mother-in-law, who has dementia and needs to see a gynecologist (but can’t remember who her GYN is or when she last saw that doctor).
I scheduled 4 college visits in the next 3 weeks for Middle Sister.
And then I couldn’t settle down. I was so agitated that I couldn’t sit here and write. I’m having a hard time writing this, actually. I can’t get calm.
I decided to run over to the GYN’s office and pick up the new-patient packet that needs to be filled out before the appointment. Then I went to the Carter’s store to get a baby gift for my cousin’s little girl who’s being christened this weekend.
Driving home, I was still agitated and really wondering what the problem is. I’d had 2 cups of coffee today, but one was half-caff and the other decaf. Yet I feel like I’ve had a whole pot of high-test.
Then I thought about how I spent my morning. Phone calls, scheduling of appointments and college visits and other things that are going to be unsettling at the very least–no wonder I’m agitated. Anxiety is in high gear right now.
And there will be no more coffee for this mama today.
One thought on “But I Switched to Decaf (well, Half-Caff, anyway)”
I totally understand and really felt for ya. I’ve got a ton going on and I have only one cup of coffee a day. I know it’s not that. It’s all the anxiety around moving, work, changes. As I get older, I can’t shoulder them as I used to. I’ve said more Hail Mary’s at 3AM than I can count! Praying for you! +++